Story of my life

Oh yes you read correctly I was rejected into rejection (sad face). To tell this story properly I have to tell it from the starting. It all started in secondary school(no judging please) I had a very huge crush on this guy for like 3 years.  I think I was in love(or not). Our eyes would always jam and I would feel butterflies in my tummy and started planning our wedding and future somewhere in my mind. I was waiting for him to make the first move but nothing.

I waited and waited but nothing. I was getting impatient and frustrated(I have already waited for 3 years) and so I decided to shoot my shot. I got his number(you don’t need to know my sources) and planned my speech and everything to make it perfect.

 I wore my big girls shoe and called him

I have this theory of never bottling my feelings inside and I was and still am an advocate for tell the person the way you feel and know where you stand.  so I called him in the night and this was how it went down. (psst he already knew I was the one when I called. That is a story for another day)

Me: Hello
Him: Hi
Me: How are you?
Him: Good and you?
Me: Fine. ehmmm there is something I need to tell you
Him: oh, okay I am all eyes
Me:(takes deep breath) I have feelings for you
silence on the other end of the line
Me: I have being in love with you for a while  and I just thought it crucial to tell you
Him: oh, I am sorry but you are not my kind of girl
My heart breaking into pieces before my very eyes but I had to still be the big girl I was after all big girls don’t cry
Me: I understand, thank you for telling me, have a goodnight rest
call ends.

All of a sudden my rules of  big girls don’t cry flew out of the window I cried a river literally. that was the first time my heart was broken. It left me wondering if I was the only one feeling it and if all the “our eyes” meeting thing was all in my head.  It has been a long time since this happened the conversation above might not be exactly it but that’s the gist. It did hurt my self-esteem at that time but I am grateful I took a bold step and I don’t regret it for a second it showed me that I was a go getter who is bold and brave to pursue the things I wanted.

So gist me have you ever being rejected after pouring out your heart I know I am not the only one. Leave a comment for me below

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