I’m I really a 22 years old cougar?
It is not a mistake you read the title correctly. Story of my life, I’m one of those girls who will never advise my girlfriends to date someone they are older than, well I broke my own rule or almost did. And i think I’m a cougar. Don’t give me that look. You have no idea; let me start from the very beginning.
I recently met this guy, he is damn fine, and a freshman in my department. I’m in my penultimate due to graduate next year and I have been single for a while (not my choice anyway). I met him during their induction, we talked he asked me to dance, I declined I’m so freaking shy. We exchanged numbers and he escorted me home. I really felt good that day.
He sent me a message and we started chatting, then he did something no guy has ever done for me he asked me to listen to a song that reminds him of me that is “puzzle of my heart” by west life. I listened to it I won’t lie it got me good and I was confused. Truth be told I’m one of those girls who hate to beat around the bush I wanted to know he’s intention. He really didn’t give me an answer but sent me another song titled “I will be waiting for you” he told me that he will be waiting for me at the end. I’m about to graduate and he is still in his first year.
Feelings began to grow I was confused(remember I like dating older guys) and he didn’t make it easy for me he was a gentleman, the way he treats me, telling me I was special and all those things a girl like me wants to hear. I asked him his age he told me he is nineteen (19) I’m three years older than him.
My heart broke literally. And everyone who knows me knows that I have sworn never to date someone the same age as me or younger. I felt that the universe was punishing me. It was also hard for me to hide the relationship we are both offering the same course and people stared and murmured anytime we were together. Don’t beat me; I do care about what people say sometimes. He told me he likes dating older ladies.
I was torn against loyalty to my rule and my feelings. I choose the later. Then I made a mistake I turned into this attention seeking wannabe girlfriend and I ruined it all. We were both having a hard time hiding our relationship. I wanted more and he couldn’t give me, I felt like I was given it all but he wasn’t. A lot of things went through my mind, if it was a bet and if he was using me.
It was a hard time for me as I realized that I was afraid of what people will say and think seeing me dating someone younger and in a lower class. I realized I’m a cougar at 22. I really did miss him. We had a misunderstanding and I hung up the call I was mad at him I felt unappreciated and frustrated; I then killed and buried my feelings for him. Don’t feel sorry for me I enjoyed my time with him.
My experience taught me a lot; firstly, never say never, secondly, let the guy take charge sometimes even if he is younger and don’t rush into something just take your time and see where it leads(that was what he told me but I was too impatient sometimes I regret it). I made some mistakes that I regret but I learnt a lot.
Don’t judge a very sensitive cougar
On a lighter note I knew that our relationship had no future, so I think it not working out was for good. But if I were to do it again I will change some things. Damn it I know this read is so intense I had no humor in me when I was writing this. I don’t think am a cougar but I will date someone younger outside campus in a heartbeat. And let me put it out there I’m still searching for my Mr. Right so if you see him tell him that I have been waiting.
After reading this listen to a puzzle of my heart by west life it has become one of my faves although it brings back memories for me. I’m actually listening to it as I’m writing this.
I’m just being candid, so what do you think? And ladies can you date someone who is younger than you? is being a cougar fun?
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